Vagabond's Waltz

It's really interesting how one can find the drive to endure when the right carrot is dangled on the line...

But that isn't to say I need much motivation at all really. I enjoy my line of work. And I enjoy the pay that comes with my line of work. What isn't always as enjoyable are the hours that it can have. The inconsistency is already a rather slippery slope. One month can be incredibly busied and the helterskelter that encompasses it can be something to be rivaled. Then, in the blink of an eye it could be a desolate as the wastes. Such things as insurance coverage, and savings, and the possibilities of perhaps some day working toward buying a house... Certainly less than solid prospects. But;; As they say, that's entertainment, folks. As is it also being an on-call labor force. But... here I digress.. (slightly.)

I do so enjoy my work, (if I haven't mentioned yet.) I also love the money that comes - when it does come, (again, if that was missed.) But it's days like the passed three that can really take a toll on a body. I often wonder how some of my companions in this business manage the way they do. This is not a desk job, ladies and gentlemen. To work such duties and to hear other speak on the kind of hours of sleep they run on? It's only be three days, (granted two 11 hours and on 9 hour days,) but I never crash harder in bed than these specific days. That, along with the aches and stiffness that come with the drudgery that we go through? It's rough nuggets, kids. I barely had time to go to the bathroom between sleeping and clocking in at work.

But the bright side glimmers now against the silver lining of the slightly-less-silver cloud. The whips will be set aside for the next four or five days and the work load will lighten. The hours will remain somewhat lengthy, which is desired - however boring that will make the day. But, as these last few days have passed, so shall those to come. Afterward, I will more than likely be much more frequent once again and shoulder my duties as an RP GM and partner much more able-bodied than I am now.

Which segues into another point... Perhaps this is a break I need from the computer.... Or.. at least entertainment technology as a whole. [cough] Even though I've finished Dragon Age, I've started over again with a new character and have been fighting for time to finish that one as well. Already with plans to start a third play through. (Curse you, Grey Wardens!!) Perhaps this severance from that as well as the constant RP cloud hovering over me (the blame no-ones but my very own,) without the glittery distraction of everything related I might be able to think much more clearly toward what moves I will make and be much more prepared upon my return to the forums. (That is, if I don't get too distracted considering on what sort of sandwich I think I should make for Nicole Kidman to eat. She desperately needs one.)


That is to say, as wretched an RPer I am coming off as currently, in a sweet sort of melancholic reverie, I think of you, RSF. I do apologize for the utter SUCK I have prefaced my GMing debut with and the FAIL I've laid out in my timely partnering skills, but I hope that your strong sense of giving me the benefit of the doubt isn't as run out as I'm leading myself to believe...

Anyway... if you'll pardon my prattling, I've been working like a dog.
(And am also suffering from Alistair withdrawals that will not go satiated this day. [indignant fist shaking])